To be honest, I've been running out of topics to write. I mean shege filled stories that is supposed to carry the struggles of every single Nigerian in a way that anyone who opens my blog sees his or her situation in his or her face and feels better. Not alone in the struggle but better. However, Nigeria is filled with a lot of people and it's safe to say that I've barely covered every suffering every single individual is facing. However, I've realised it all stems from one thing - corruption. And from corruption to poverty. Hence, my poverty themed stories.
However, recently someone insulted me and I took it personal. It's normal for Nigerians to throw insults around especially a certain tribe but let's not go there. So it might not be a big deal for both of us. But it was for me because I thought about the possibility of it being true. “Poverty Mentality” Trust me sometimes I can be a people pleaser so I thought deeply about it. I searched unhealthily about it and concluded that just maybe it might be true. But it's not just me. It's basically almost every Nigerian prioritizing their survival and Nigerians adopting a strict spending habit to build wealth somewhere later in the future.
Somewhere in the midst of my worry, I've realised that people tend to project their feelings and struggles to other people. They say what they really feel or what they're battling within them. If someone tells you, you need to be smarter than you already are, the chances are they don't see themselves as smart enough.
Someone once asked me if my articles are personal stories. I'd be lying if I said they fully were because they really are not. They say you act out or say what you've absorbed from your environment. Trust me, it's true. My articles are my stories thoroughly merged and concoted into stories of people around me. Therefore, you can never guess which is mine except you know my story. And only one person is aware of my real story.
So I'm here, in an entirely new environment, trying to break free from my introverted personality to make friends.It has not being easy I tell you because I practically learnt to enjoy my own company since I was litte but I won't stop trying. And when I do, I mean when I successfully merge my mindset with that of others, my content will be a lot more richer.
This article is a once in a while ranting without a script or a need to solve a problem. Trust me, I'm not using any writing tool or app for this. “This is me" screams in the greatest showman. Hehe. This is a vulnerability article that I'm not sure anyone will relate to but will definitely understand. This is also not an article per day. As I said earlier, it's just a ranting.
Ps: I see y'all reading my articles but never commenting or engaging. I'm not a bad person, please like even if you have to enter the substack app to do so. I actually did put myself in my audience shoes. I subscribed with another email account to my blog just to see what it feels like to be a reader and I realised you have to enter the app to like my blog but It's not a waste of time. I understand that life is hitting us badly and Nigeria is Nigeriaing. My last article had a hundred and thirteen reads but just three likes. It's the behind the scenes analytics that keeps me going for real. Please like my articles at least and comment. Help me grow 🙏